Saturday, July 27, 2013

One month ago....

One month ago, our daughter, then an orphan, got in a blue SUV to travel 3.5 hours with 3 Chinese women to meet her mommy and daddy. She had no idea how her life was about to completely change.


Once called Xue Jian now Chloe Rae, a cherished daughter!


One month ago she had nannies...


Today she has a mommy...

...because "Mommy" is forever. It's such a powerful name. Mommy means "I trust you." Mommy means "you will protect me." Mommy is for shouting when you need someone dependable and for laughing with when you are excited. Mommy is for crying on and cuddling with when you are sad, or giggling and hiding behind when you are embarrassed. Mommy is the fixer of boo-boos and the mender of broken hearts. Mommy is a comfort place - a safe place. Mommy means "you are mine and I am yours and we are family.” 
― Katie J. Davis
Kisses from Katie: A Story of Relentless Love and Redemption




One month ago there were no smiles or cries....




Today her smile can light up a room...





One month ago this is where she lived....


And this was her bed...


Today this is where she lives...


And this is where she sleeps...


One month ago she had no family....today she is a sister...




One month ago these were her friends



Today these are her friends...



One month ago our lives changed forever, today we are blessed beyond measure! 


“Adoption is wonderful and beautiful and the greatest blessing I have ever experienced. Adoption is also difficult and painful. Adoption is a beautiful picture of redemption.” 
― Katie DavisKisses from Katie: A Story of Relentless Love and Redemption























Monday, July 22, 2013

Firsts

Yesterday we had a few firsts I wanted to document:) Chloe had her first jar of baby food in her big girl high chair after we braved church for the first time with all three kids:)


That evening our friends invited us to one of our favorite Sunday dining spots:) We were apprehensive, but all five of us plus the Metzgers survived a two hour dinner:) 

The kids loved pushing Chloe in her pink stroller from Auntie Andrea

Ms. Diana always comes prepared with lots of crafts:) Notice the glass of wine on the bar?! That was headed my way!!!



Sunday, July 21, 2013

First week home

Our first week home was filled with ups and downs...gosh, it sure is hard to adjust to life w three kids when your body tells you it's still in China! Jet lag is no joke and effects not just sleep:( I think between China and our first week home I managed to lose a few pounds, but now my appetite is back in full swing and fully expect to put them back on. Especially with all the lovely meals so many of you are bringing! Side note-meals are such a huge blessing!! I will be a better giver of them in the future:)



Anyway, I survived the week mostly on my own. Nick went back to work Tuesday:( and my parents took a much deserved (and needed) vacation! Some days I felt like a really good mom and that I had it all together and others I counted down the moments till the day was over! Gavin was such a good brother, but Ethan wasn't have the easiest of times with his new little sister! He wasn't himself all week...turns out he had a severe double ear infection. Poor baby screamed for hours yesterday begging us to get him to the dr. He got two shots and after several hours was able to feel some relief! Yesterday was hard though juggling a very sick little boy, a baby, and a sweet big brother who wanted to go to a pool party! We managed to make everyone happy and by the end of the day I felt a little more confident. 



Our little Chloe girl is a beautiful addition to our family and we are loving every minute with her. She is coming to life more each day! Trusting us, smiling for us, allowing us to love her...goodness, it was not easy for her, but we are so thankful for these milestones! I cannot get enough of her clefty smile and would be happy never to have it repaired! She is a light:) another side note-I am so thankful to have her or I may have never really been able to teach my kids the all too important lesson that looking different is ok. Everywhere we go we get stares-breaks my heart! Especially in China, but even here at good ol Sweet Frog! Thinking about others with special needs go through has now hit home...I sure hope my children will always show compassion to others even if they don't look like them.



Coming home with an adoptive baby with special needs also equals lots of drs appts. Last week, we saw our pediatrician who ordered hip X-rays, blood work, cleft consult, stool samples, pediatric ophthalmologist consult, etc. I was able to fit in the x rays last week and scheduled all the other appts for the next few weeks...whew! Drs. Visits alone could be a full time job! Unfortunately, Chloe's hip X-rays were abnormal so we will add an orthopedic surgeon consult to the mix! Just taking it one day at a time!!!

We were also able to squeeze in a few visitors this week!! 




Yesterday I posted a scripture about the many deeds the Lord has done (Many, Lord my God, are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us. None can compare with you; were I to speak and tell of your deeds, they would be too many to declare. Psalm 40:5)...we are just in awe of how God has provided for us and answered so many prayers (many that y'all prayed on our behalf). We are just soooo incredibly thankful!!! It seems selfish to ask for continued prayers, but we will need them...our medical road with Chloe will be long. Please also continue to pray for her continued growth as a daughter! She is learning what this means, but it won't be a quick process! In addition, my beloved aunt and my sister in law's mother have both been diagnosed with cancer during our journey. We are believing God for a miracle for both of these precious ladies and pleading with God for healing for them both!! 

Again, we are just sooo thankful for all of you!!! Thanks for loving us and praying!!!




Saturday, July 20, 2013

Homecoming!!

Many, LORD my God, are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us. None can compare with you; were I to speak and tell of your deeds, they would be too many to declare. Psalm 40:5


Goodbye China Hotel!! Hello Orlando, Fl!!!


Not sure what to think of these new toys in the middle of the night!

We have been home for exactly a week...it's been an exhausting, exciting, hectic, crazy, unforgettable week. this time last week my boys were running out of their rooms to find Chloe, Daddy, and I waiting in the living room for them. That morning was better than any Christmas I can remember. Just pure joy!! The boys were soooo excited to see us and meet their sister!!! I cried at how big they had gotten and couldn't stop kissing their faces! Ethan was a bit unsure of his new sister and preferred to focus on the prizes from China, but Gavin....oh Gavin...just the sweetest boy ever!!! 

























Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Splash splash

Our girl loves the water so we tried the pool this afternoon!! Her is my sweet little ducky in her suit Auntie Andrea bought her even before we saw her face!!








Tuesday, July 9, 2013

The dreaded post

So I am have been dreading this post for awhile because I sure don't want to offend anyone and I don't know what life will look like once we are back home, but most adoptive families post some sort of boundary post so here is mine:)

Children who have lived in an institution (or wo a mama and daddy) will need some time to attach. Chloe may look like she is doing wonderful in pictures and she is, but she is not yet attached to us. She will let anyone hold her and doesn't worry about us quite yet. We will probably not let her out of our sight for weeks and will probably not offer for others to hold her. This is just for a short time until she sees us as the mama and baba...the meeter of all her needs. We will also be the only ones to feed her for the short term. We need her to know that we aren't just nannies and are her forever family. This may takes weeks or it may take months. Some families "cocoon" for three months or so (limiting visitors and outings) until security is achieved. We don't know what this will look like for our family, but do know that it is going to take some time to adjust to the crazy time change, life as a family of 5, and making up for some lost time with our boys! 

I am not saying we don't want to see you...we do...just please call first and also know I probably won't be handing her over for snuggles quite yet. Also, I will likely not be much of a good friend...I know life will be crazy and not able to come to things or return calls...please keep inviting me and calling. I have known since we started this process we would make a lot of sacrifices to be where we are now and I am prepared for those, but I know I will still need encouragement even if it is not reciprocated on my end. 

You all have been so wonderful through all of this. Your prayers, excitement, love, kindness, encouraging words have been a source of strength through this journey! Thank you for loving us and understanding as we navigate through the new waters of attachment. 

Worth it all!!!!



Consulate Appointment and Pearl Market

Today we started our day bright and early at the US Consulate. It was much more informal than I had imagined but we all took our oath as a group (I cried through it) and then were called to the window to sign the last of our documents on this journey. It is so surreal...we have come so far. On one had I can't wait to get that VISA and leave for the wonderful US, but with that comes great sadness to leave Chloe's homeland. Everything she has ever known has changed and soon so will all her surroundings, smells, people,and even language. She is ours forever, but I can't help but grieve for the mom who made the unthinkable decision to let her precious child go...saying goodbye means saying goodbye to her also. I will no longer look around and wonder could that be her...did she look like that? We will always be connected....



As soon as we land in Washington our daughter becomes a US Citizen...and after living in another country for 17 days a privilege I will no longer take for granted! 

At the consulate all decked out in our red, white, and blue!!!

After our consulate appointment we all went to the pearl market...we got several items, but my favorite purchase is a pearl necklace to give Chloe on her wedding day from her homeland. FYI-pearls here are 1/4 the cost as in the states.



Group pictures, Shamian Island, and Group Dinner

Yesterday we started our day with group pictures! We have loved getting to know our group and will never forget them and this journey we took together.


Maureen and I with our girls

The whole gang


The babies


Shopping with mommy and daddy


Vivian and Chloe in their matching outfits I had made when we got our referrals! Never dreamed they (or Maureen and I ) would meet in China! Maureen has become such a dear friend and I am so thankful God allowed us to meet in China!! Maureen leaves for home today...I am so sad to say goodbye!! 


This was the perfect picture for us in the Friendship Garden!!

Shamian Island

Group traditional Chinese dinner


Such a tired girl at dinner after a busy day!