God Are You Nice Or Mean?

I am reading this book God Are You Nice Or Mean? Trusting God...After the Orphanage by Debra Delulio. It is such a great book about being in the trenches with kids from extremely "hard places" and God's sovereignty through it all. I have to be honest...today I am asking God the same question...are you nice or mean? But this time about our first referral that we sadly said no to just after NYE. I fell hard for her...very hard and have been praying for her to find a family ever since the day we tearfully had to decline her file. Yesterday, I found out she is now listed on our agency website...which means no other family has said "yes" either and the agency is hoping someone will see her and become interested. It makes me second guess our decision and scour the research on her condition just to see if I missed something. Why did I ever see her? Why is she still without a family? I just don't understand why children have to suffer? I just don't understand why our MIGHTY God can't come down and scoop little P up and all the 130 plus million children without a family as well. God are you nice or mean? Today is one of those days I don't understand but trust in His promises anyway (Romans 8:28). I am a believing He hears my prayers...for P to find a family and and how we can help her. One of my favorite songs is playing as I write, You Are I Am by Mercy Me. Thanks God for the gentle reminder that You're the one who conquers giants, You're the one who calls out kings, You shut the mouths of lions, You tell the dead to breathe, You're the one who walks through fire, You take the orphan's hand, You are the one Messiah, You are I am, You are I am.
**I know nothing about advocating for a child like some of my other adoption fb friends, but if anyone reads this that knows someone who might be interested in more information about little P send them to www.ccaifamily.org and select waiting children. She is apart of the special focus group which means anyone, even without a dossier in China, is eligible to adopt her or any of the other special focus children listed.