Another "no"

This past Tuesday we got another call from my favorite phone number...CCAI Denver, CO. This time was different than last...I was prepared for heartbreak, but also trying to be optimistic. I guess my heart was just really guarded. I still think of our first referral often. I am not going to say much about this second referral here, but I did want to document it because it is definitely another step in this journey. I hope to look back one day and know all the ups and downs were worth it. Long story short, this little girl was also not right for our family. Saying "no" stinks...it just really, really stinks. My heart hurts...BUT despite the hurt today we will celebrate the Chinese New Year and our little girl who is still in China. I am praying HER file finds her way to our agency and that this is her last New Year in China. My friend, Karen, without knowing any of this cheered me up in the best way possible. She brought us all the fixings to create the perfect New Year's celebration right here at home. So tonight, it's a New Year in the country where my daughter lives...we will celebrate even if our hearts hurt.