We finished the last part of our home study this past Monday. Our last visit with our social worker, Kat, till post adoption. I am still in shock that we are really doing this...on one hand it seems like this madness just begun, but on the other hand it feels like we have been in the process for SOOOO long. Really, we applied to adopt at the end of February...so we are just hitting the 5 month mark and have almost completed our dossier. Once our home study passes the review process we can apply with the UCSIS for approval which can take 60 days (or more). Once we get their approval one more batch will need to be sent to the Secretary of State and then the Houston Consulate...and then we are finished! Well, minus passports and a couple more photos! Darn me for wearing too many hats and sleeveless shirts...I mess up all potential photos. So the point is we are on the home stretch folks! I had a dream last night we got our referral...I woke up feeling all sorts of emotions. Mostly excitement, but also fear...fear of what her life is like now...fear of traveling...fear of leaving my boys...fear of her not being able to attach...fear, fear, fear!
And then I was reminded of what God says about fear-
There is no fear in love: but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. 1 John 4:18